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One week ago today my father had his heart attack. It seems very unreal. In some ways things are the same: he is here with us and is his own quirky, loving self. In other ways things are very different: he is slower moving, quieter, and has an air of fragileness. I know some of these things will change and possibly go away as time goes by, but the knowledge that things can change in an instant is somewhat unsettling, for him and for us.

Each of us is dealing with this "event" in our own way. I can only speak for myself, but it helped put things into perspective; life can be gone in an instant.

In that instant, suddenly things that seem so important take a backseat to the "event." Earlier in the week, I was doing some re-evaluating and had to make a decision. The right thing was obvious but not easy. Even though my logical brain knew the decision was sound, rational, and correct, my emotional brain needed some time to catch up. And sometimes doing the right thing really stinks. Putting other's needs above your own is never easy, but it's right. Sometimes eating the right things instead of ice cream or lots of Mexican food isn't easy, but it's right.

God never says the right way is easy. In fact Jesus says the way is broad (easy) that leads to destruction, but the narrow (hard) way leads to life. I know this with my rational brain..... but occasionally, when I'm walking down the narrow road, I would like to know what God's plan is because I am really tired of pain.

My dad's pain is gone but in it's place is uncertainty. Will the heart stay beating? Will life go on as before? What is going to happen next? We all can ask these question regardless of the kind of health we now posess. Sometimes it takes an attack of the heart to put life, and decisions, into perspective.

With that said, I am now going to surf for places to visit on my roadtrip. I was told by a co-worker that Lawrence is a good place to visit. I have never been there, but a roadtrip is a roadtrip.... I don't care who you are. (yes, K, I really quoted Larry the Cable Guy!) EEEE YA KEEEEEEE. (Don't ask....it's a family thing.)